day 05: three years ago today

three years ago today i had an apartment i never kept tidy.  my very own space that i never felt lonely in.

i was the world's worst waitress.

i was the kind of girl who believed that you wouldn't catch cold dancing in a rainstorm if you drank enough tequila.  i was really wrong.

i was the girl who people made comments on facebook photos about;

"pourer of drinks. 

dancer on bars. 

stealer of shirts. 

general merriment maker."

i had really, really, really great hair.

three years ago today i had just lost my dad to cancer.  i didn't know how to feel.  i had skipped the class that taught you how to deal because i wanted to go smoke in the parking lot.

three years ago today i was only months away from meeting the man who would give me the opportunity to slow it down.  take a breath.  learn to deal and learn to heal.  the boy who would give me a home in which i sometimes get lonely when i miss him.

three years ago today i was a girl doing the best i could with what god had given me.  i was actually pretty awesome.  i still kind of am.

i am linking up with '30 days hath november'